How many of us are liberated in the true sense of the word?
I'm not. Not completely. Of course there have been some brief periods in my life when I felt free...but they have been few. Lately I've developed this very bad habit of pondering over everything. What will someone think or say if I wear this? What will that person think if I write on a particular topic? How will I be able to justify to someone my inability to do some xyz task? Is our manner of life correct? Are we not misfits in the family, society, world? Will people be interested in what I have to write? Do I really have a story to tell?
I am plagued with such thoughts almost every single day. Thoughts like these create self-doubt and once that finds roots within you, life becomes hell. When I mull indefinitely over a tweet, a blog post or a story, I eventually end up not tweeting, not blogging and not writing. And thus end up feeding my self-doubt even more.
It's not easy to liberate oneself. A change of scene is not a solution, as I've experienced because the self-doubt neatly folds itself into your luggage and comes along for the journey. And of course, spoils it.
So, what to do? After some thought, I've brought it down to these.
1. Let go. More like.......LET GO!
2. Believe in ME.
3. Always look at the grass on my side of the fence and be grateful for it.
4. Laugh more. With friends, family, loved ones.
5. Make no.1 the goal of the year.
And most importantly,
6. Write. Without shame, without care, without remorse.
I love this. Because I have been feeling the same lately. And it does get better the same way that you say it does (i.e. points 1-6).
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